"I said I wouldn't,
dammit: No tears.
I'm stone. I'm flesh." These three lines at first give me the feeling that he is afraid of facing his turmoiled emotions that were developed from the war. but are these emotions from guilt or from loosing a comrade in battle? to better explain i will quote:
"I go down the 58,022 names ,
half-expecting to find
my own in letters like smoke.
I touch the name Andrew Johnson ;
I see the booby trap's white flash."reading these lines leaves me with two impressions that Andrew saved his life going on ahead and setting off the trap. leaving him with the feeling that it should have been him or maybe its a traumatic event in which he can't believe he survived. so is he facing fear or guilt?